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Friday, March 25, 2011

Spiritual Armor All

I was standing next to a filthy sink yesterday, in a green jumpsuit and steel-toed boots. In front of me was a paint-covered shopping cart filled with chemicals which I was to open and dump down the filthy sink as quickly as possible. Sound strange? For me it's just another day working at the Eco-Site.

People bring in funny things to us sometimes. For example, in this particular cart, those chemicals deemed by the public to be "hazardous" included 24-hour oral rinse, shampoo, pet lice shampoo, and hand lotion. The horror!!!

I reached into the cart for the next bottle and glanced over I had just grabbed. The label caught my attention.

Armor-All
Protects and Beautifies

I've worked with Armor All before.. it's meant to polish leather car seats and other things, but at that moment I thought instead of the Holy Spirit.

I know. You can laugh; I did when I saw that on my computer screen.

But truly, the Holy Spirit in us acts as a Protecter, Comforter, and Guide in our lives as we follow Christ (John 14:26). He gives us gifts to edify the body and ourselves (1 Cor 12). And yes, indeed, He does beautify us. He renews us (Titus 3:5)! He works in our lives to sanctify us and make us more like Jesus. God is the most gloriously beautiful Being in existence because of His absolute holiness, so having the Holy Spirit teach and mold us gives us a taste of His beauty in this life. Can you believe that we'll actually get to experience His full beauty and holiness for all eternity? I mean, can you BELIEVE that?

It boggles the mind. God promises us His presence in this life, and that's what He's given us - so thank Him for your Spiritual Armor-All.

-Grace Marita




Saturday, March 5, 2011

She held my face in her hands, gently but firmly. With the tenderness of a mother but the determination of a sister, she spoke truth to me. "Don't be afraid. You can trust Him. You can trust Him." The tears on her cheeks in no way diminished her message.

I was part of a group that traveled down to the National Religious Broadcasters Convention in Nashville this year, with the purpose of networking, conducting interviews, and going to seminars. I knew it would be a chance to meet and learn from people professionally; God surprised me with a shower of spiritual blessings as well.

The morning our team left for Nashville we needed to meet at our pickup location at nine am sharp. I (as with many mornings) left the house a tad later than I planned. With a new layer of snow on the ground from the night before and a high level of stress at packing/airport/travel, I drove a tad faster than I should have. I fishtailed on the slippery roads and almost rear-ended another car, but God in His providence protected us both. I drove very carefully after that.  Thank You, Lord.

I normally get stressed and frantic when I have to fly.. it has something to do with the whole security screening I guess.. but even more so now. Maybe this is only an issue for women, but I'll just lay it on the line. I am not comfortable with the thought of stepping into a booth and having some stranger scan my body for dangerous objects. I'm even more adamant about being patted down. My body belongs to me and to my husband; I want to save it for him. I don't want to put myself in a position to be touched in that way; quite frankly, that small procedure was giving me more anxiety than the flight itself.

So after getting thoroughly worked up about going through security, our group was able to pass through the checkpoints minus a body scanner OR a patdown. WOW. Thank You, Lord.

My first interview in Nashville was with an energetic young man with a passion for reaching lost teens on the Internet. (I say young because he's within five years of me... I felt quite young the whole weekend:)) After spending much time talking and getting to know each other, my new friend and brother in Christ asked if he could pray for me (how wonderful it is to have another Christian pray over you!). I ran into him several times that weekend and each time his energy and passion for Christ encouraged me beyond words. Thank You, Lord.

Sunday morning I heard a strong, convicting message by James MacDonald and was able, after much searching/staking out his booth, to shake his hand and thank him for his commitment to biblical teaching. I think I came off as a stammering six-year-old girl (my accomplice assures me I didn't), but when God uses a Bible teacher to grow you, your heart is to thank them earnestly. He was gracious - he called me Sweetie, which seemed strange in the moment but I am young enough to be his daughter/niece - and thanked me. Thank You Lord.

Sunday afternoon I had another interview with a well-known author, whose books have blessed me greatly. When she greeted me with a huge hug, I knew it would be another blessed interview. We found a quiet room and she promptly kicked off her heels when we sat down - a kindred spirit. I loved it :) We spoke at length about her book and then she asked me questions about myself and my passion. She asked if she could pray for me, and asked God to give me wisdom and direction and patience and courage.. when I lifted my head after the prayer she was weeping. She took my face in her hands and would not let go until I looked her in the eye and heard what she was saying.

"Don't be afraid, Grace. You can trust Him. You can trust Him."

***Insert another post here***

Thank You, Lord.

Monday I was standing in the pressroom area when another teacher walked by who has greatly influenced me - Dr. Ravi Zacharias. I was just talking on my cell phone, and here he comes, just strolling right past me. I was sort of in shock. God's used his ministry to equip millions of believers - myself included - in practicing apologetics. I had a press conference to attend, so with great regret I entered the room and didn't expect to see Ravi again. When the half-hour press conference was over, I exited the back doors and - in God's awesomeness - Ravi had been in the room next door the entire time. I took a deep breath, walked right up to him and introduced myself. I was super-nervous, but I had to thank him for what he was doing.

A friend of mine has said that he'd be really intimidated to ever meet Ravi in person, because he's so intellectual and can think on his feet better than most people. Another friend of mine has said "Ravi wouldn't ever have to physically take you on - he'd just rip you apart with his logic." :)

I'm happy to say, in person, Ravi is very kind, soft-spoken, and welcoming. Thank You, Lord.

That night I met with a potential future employer with a heart for reaching oppressed women believers worldwide. That meeting also ended with prayers and tears. Thank You, Lord.

All in all, a very eventful, amazing, insightful weekend in Nashville. One thing stood out above all else - we tend to put well-known Christians on a pedestal. I'm guilty of this many times. I was so excited to meet all of these Bible preachers and radio personalities in person, but I tend to have high expectations for them. I was able to meet two amazing godly teachers, but chances are they've forgotten who I am. GOD NEVER FORGETS. He asks, "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast ...? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands" (Is. 49:15-16).

He holds our face in His hands.. He will not forget us. We can trust Him; sometimes it takes another believer holding our face to remind us of that.

- Grace Marita



 

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Yearning

I can't go on Facebook too often.

Don't get me wrong, I have 500-some friends, hundreds of pictures, and about a dozen notes on it. I'm well-established. It's a tool that I use to pop into people's lives that I don't get to see every day; my friend the theater major had an important audition in Chicago; my former hallmate in New York is enjoying grad school; a pastor in Seattle I follow is doing some reading and research for a book he's writing on marriage and is depressed by some of the divorce stats he's finding.

But I tend to get too wrapped up in the immediacy of social networking, and it's causing me some (minor) anguish. The reason is, a lot of my friends are getting married.

Don't mistake me here. I'm SO incredibly happy for them. It brings me joy to see Christ-centered marriages because that gives me assurance that "'til death do us part" is possible. But especially when you've gone to a small (wonderful!) Christian college where most people tend to meet their spouse, seeing that mini-feed light up with heart icons and profile pictures of giddy girls with engagement rings brings a mixture of excitement, anticipation, and (yes, I'm sorry) a teensy bit of sadness.

All this to say, I can't go on Facebook too often, because the more I check it, the more people are engaged. And the more acutely aware I am that I am not.

I was talking to God about this last night, one of many long-winded prayers surrounding my future husband. The conversation went something like this. Me: Lord, I know You are infinitely wise and good, and that You are using this time of singleness to grow me. But Father, this is really really hard. I'm nesting. I want to stay at home and clean and cook. I want to be a wife. I want my husband to come home and be excited to see me. I want to be a mom, Lord.. I mean, 2000 years ago I'd be considered an old maid. I'm of prime marrying age --

Then suddenly, the Lord gently but firmly cut me off.

YHWH: Grace,  I will decide when you are of prime marrying age..

WOW. I shut my mouth sheepishly then, and felt my heavenly Father, wise and wonderful, asserting His authority and asking me to trust Him. I may be 22. I may want to be a wife and mother (and I believe I someday will be) but God knows when I will be ready. He knows my heart - He created it! He wired me this way, to want to be a woman who loves and serves her husband. He loves me. And, He loves you. Trust Him, as you walk through this time of preparation.

We're not speaking to a God who doesn't know what He's doing.

-Grace Marita

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Welcome! And Psalm 29

Yup! After months of going back and forth, I decided to join the blogging community after all. I'm incredibly excited to test the waters and see what's going to happen with my blog.

That said, I have a confession to make. (I know, Day 1 and I'm already being vulnerable. Eek!)

Initially, I saw a blog as an opportunity to vent my feelings on various topics, experiences, what have you. But as I'm crafting this new opportunity/page, I feel something different. Bigger. More important than simply talking about my day. This might sound strange, but I feel a sort of holy awe at how God might use my writing to accomplish things for His glory. Every aspect of life - including the internet - is used by YHWH to further His plans for His glory. This can't be just a way to tell friends and family about my day. My goal is to approach each new blog entry prayerfully and be aware of God's leading to certain topics.

Why did I decide to call my blog The Beauty of Holiness? There are a couple of reasons. First, as a woman, physical beauty is something I wrestle with constantly. Culture says one thing, the Bible says another. I believe the Bible is God's Word and the absolute truth, but I also have days where I don't feel beautiful in any sense.. On those days it can be tempting to believe a few extra brushes of mascara are just what a woman needs to feel feminine.

The second reason has to do with Psalm 29, which has become a beautiful devotional psalm for me lately. The title of my blog comes from verse 2, where the psalmist exhorts us to "Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; Worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness" (emphasis mine). Lately, God has been opening my eyes to what it means to worship Him in the beauty of holiness, and how much more lasting holy beauty is when placed alongside (cultural) physical beauty.

The third reason is... GOD IS BEAUTIFUL. Since He is the source of beauty, it follows that He is the most GLORIOUSLY BEAUTIFUL Being in the entire universe. And the more time we spend with Him seeking His face, the more we focus on His beauty rather than worrying about our own.

So here I go. On a journey, following Christ, seeking His face, godly wisdom... and a few committed sisters* with which to make the journey. How about it? :)



~Grace Marita


*Brothers are always welcome here too!! Didn't mean to leave you guys out :)